yes. i will rant.
i suppose, if i wish to be stubborn, no one can change my thinking. but yes, the moment your mindset changes, your attitude changes, your lifestyle changes.. everything isnt the same. and.. my mindset changed. yes, its for the worse. today.

today is a bad day.
i dont know why i feel really hurt
by peoples words, actions..
by the past.
its haunting me.
haha. sense the irony?
im not afraid of sprits, so the past haunts me instead.
oh Lol.
thats so ironic.
hahahaha.
...
oh well.
who am i.
a mere speck on the planet.
one in a million millions.
amazing.
so small.
i mean so little.
how will this one little speck rise up?
i dont know.
because now, pressure from every single corner is coming, and pushing me downwards.
im sprialing down.
it sux.
i cant see where my future is.

i am ruled by my emotions.
i dont know why. i just am.

i liked to think of myself as strong. strong enough to cast away fears, take the world head on.
i cant even take a tiny thing, head on. im weak. im So weak. why? ...
im so afraid
im so...
haiz..
im practically scared of everything.
that sux.
oh well.
its not the end.
i still have the life after this.
no1 will see that post i wrote just now.
Thank God.
because if they do, im history.
and..
yes
im history.
end
finito
finale
ta da
.
my life
is
gonna
end
soon.