I CANT CONTROL MY DAMN FUCKING EMOTIONS....
why!
.....
yes
some people put walls around their weaknesses, to hide them, and protect themselves..
and im doing just that..
why am i like this, i just dont understand..
why i feel so unwanted, i just dont understand...
im ...
i feel so..
haiz
what does it matter...
who cares anyway.

and yes.
usually, when 1 says "who cares",
the inner thought is, by saying who cares, its actually getting people to say reasons, and reassure that things will be ok. but in this context... i dont think any1 really gives a shit anymore..

im useless.
it dosent matter.
what matters.
i wanna see Jesus.
oh God.. kill me now...