haiz...
i feel really.. haiz
...
idk lah.. the feelings of inferiority and unwantedness came back.... and..
im scared.. when will my heart give in
when will i breakdown?
...
i feel like a lousy friend...
he did so much for me..
shit la.......
i wasnt even there when he needed to talk..
i didnt know it was that yan zhong...shit.... im sorry...
next time.. i wont listen to what ppl's opnions are... im.. im really sorry... please, take care. i hope you'll giv me a chance to be there for you. friends, forever..
yes, friends forever sounds really like.. fake. because in reality, will it happen? .. but i mean it la.. i want to be your friend, forever.. take care of your self.. ... .... ... oink :)


hahas..
im starting to become abit too emotional... almost cried today.. again..... shit lah.. could feel the tears.. why do i always feel inferior.. why am i always scared... why? haiz.. whats wrong with me.. oh man..

oh yah, hhaha... watched a horror m18? movie at shanika hse! :D i wonder who was scared... hhahas.. i love watching horror lah!!! seeing deir face..the shock reaction... .. heh hehh hehhh... :P ... *smirk* hahha
diao
...
haha
anyway, im not scared of horror movies :)
simply because i alwiz believe.. that well... k lar..
when i was young, i got scared at something
and..it really freaked me out, that i can remember it till today.
and.. everytime i was scared, of anything, my ma will tell me, tell that thing, " in Jesus name, Be Gone!"and it will go.because Jesus' Name is stronger than any evil sprit.

hhahha.. anyway, that was a Really long time ago, when she telled me that. .. like.. 9..10..11 years?
and she isnt that spritual now. i think.. hahaha.. but anyway,
i still believe it.

anyway,
got 2 testimonies to share next wk cg :) but 1 is unconfirmed. :D
hhahas...

this is really irritating.
there are 1144 songs in my itunes folder, and
that makes it really hard for me to
sort them out.
because
i have to rename 1144 files in the original folder, and write, first artist, then name, if i don? headache.
and if i leave it?
cannot!
because
got some songs i oso never hear b4...
walao
really
big headache lah
waliao...
JIUMING!!!!
...
time to rename my genres.