aiyz
i dono whats been going on inside me lately.
i poned service today, something i regret like hell...
at the same time, though i didnt feel like going, i couldnt really stay.. because i had to be somewhere at 6.00 sharp.. and.. i din wanna leave early lah. haha.

well.. i feel like.. haiz.. idk lahz.. my mood swings like shit man.. its like .. in the afternoon, i was crying, sobbing.. all funny sounds coming out from me, and.. well.. cry like nobody buisness.. in PUBLIC SOME MORE =.= .... and now.. i feel... i feel touched...

today was different.. i mean.. i really dono what happened.. somehow, the atmosphere wit my band mates, with my instructors, was AMAZING.. i mean.. i've never felt more.. joyful .. haha. yes... i miss dat... alot.. and.. haiz.. its such a nice feeling, dat i've taken forgranted for so long... hahas.. THANKYOU....

i really dono whats going on man... i totally dont feel like myself at All...
but.. i wanna thank .. people.. dat.. well.. hahas. you know lah. its abit hard for me to say this, but.. im... grateful.. to have people like you, around me..you're VERY appreciated. :)

i dono whether dis whole (below) incident changes anything lah... because my mood swings really like heaven and hell 1... zzzz.. and i have no idea why,

anyway, today.. was a so called mini performance thingy, at z2h lesson place, but our band, stereotypes, were supposed to go CSC first, to get the feel of the place, because we cannot go next sat.. hahas. so, yeah. :P and, wow, see the drum set there, AMAZING MAN!!! but its only a 300 seater, kinda pathetic :P kekeke... but the drums are dam cool!!!! though they are dam far apart.. i couldnt reach the cymbal :P ... hahas. anyway, at lesson place, had the mini performance.. and.. we drew locks, and our band was the first =.= .. we tried swapping wit another band, but.. haha.. failed at it lah. :P so..

haha. actually, i was the one dat made us fail.. played like.. uno staco or sth to determine who would win, s o.. i was the 1 who ehe.. made the tower fall :P haha. im SORRY! felt so bad man.. argh!!!!!! well.. we played.. valerie asked me to pretend the drumset was some1, so WHACK AS HARD AS I CAN! PLAY LOUDER!! haha. i played louder.. so.. hahas.. i mean, last time i played, before today, i really COULD NOT catch the last part and.. on the way to CSC, i listened to it over and over.. try to remember what Jun Wei taught.. and .. somehow, i could play it with minor mistakes at the performance! :D!!!!!

and, i was COMPLIMENTED! in front of every1! like, WHOA!!!!! haha!! i felt.. wow. ego boost :)

anyway, dats not the main thing... my band mates, really made my life WONDERFUL today.. it was really awesome lah.. i thank God i have friends like these...


haiz.. i hope dat things dont go back to.. haiz.. back.. .. yet.. its kinda too early to say..