seems like my blog posts all revolve around something..
i mean, i am typing what i feel at the moment, but..
i dont know how to explain..

its like..they are kinda depressing.. haha

theres so many excuses i can find for 1 small thingy.. but i'll never carry out my 100, 1000 , 10000 excuses... thats all they ever are, excuses.. telling me, but i didnt force myself to do this, i didnt expect that to happen.. im in no position to even speak,man..

well..
as usual, im getting ignored. get used to it over time. im not bothered anymore. ok, i was lying.. haaa..

what to do lah... i mean.. i dont have anything to look forward to. every day is merely a routine, a chore. i dont wanna go home, i dont wanna leave home.. i dont wanna live!... well. thats my fault too. no, i didnt choose the family i was born in, but i can change it, cant i? if not them, myself, cant i?

suicide is destroying the 1 person you can actually change.. but i don wanna change.. stubbornness.. who cares. im sick and tired of living this lie.. i cant wait for sunday. FINALLY GET MY BIBLE BACK! and something else great too. finally..
i feel like crying...

i need to be aware of the fact.. i am 14.. merely 14.. its.. a pathetic age.. i dont belong here, neither do i belong there.. in school, there are so many rumours flying around and so much gossip i want nothing to do with.. theres so many images people try to create, that i try to avoid.. and yet.. well.. i dont know.. i cant say. anything.

i dont wanna blog nonsense anymore.
if i say that, it means i'll never blog again. everything i type IS after all, nonsense.
you mean, this makes sense? nothing makes sense..
what is religion.. what is faith.. what is life, what is death,, what is afterlife, what is friends, what is this, what is that,
....