i'd rather dream of anything else!!
it reminds me too much of the past..this dream..

WHY COULDNT IT BE THE BANANA MONSTER OF OCTOPUS MONSTERRR>..
at least dey don affect me directly.. T.T" jiuming!!!
i cant remember the last time i had a dream that wasnt a nightmare..
no matter how dumb the banana monster or octopus monster sounds, they were night mares.. i woke up afraid.. now im dam scared of my eye.. im dam scared i lose it.. wont forget that feeling.. its like.. it fell through my mouth leh... wahlao.. den i walked to my ma.. she was on the phone.. den i spit it out... she helped me immediately... but scary thing is that i could still see through that eye socket... blur images...
T.T"
i remember everything exactly lah!!!!
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i dont wanna be tormented in my dreams! im tormented ENOUGH in real life to say i DONT want this!
now my eye v. itchy...
i dono how.. but could force myself to wake up... did i know i was dreaming?
its scary.. i don wanna sleep le.. i just wana stay at home and die..............is death this scary? if it is.. i don wanna die le. im gonna treasure my life like SHIT....nth will make me die!!! im scared..

im scared im SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!