time and time again i have to remind myself to stay strong despite the circumstances.. but seems like everytime i remind myself, i just wanna cry out... i cant be like that forever, i cant just let things pass me by.. it hurts.. i cant ignore it.. yet if i face it it will be worse? i dont know... but i guess i've been holding inside these feelings for so long.. i dont know how to let them out.. and if i do, no1 is there to comfort me... issit because i dont trust anyone enough to let them in? fear of getting hurt again and again? ... i feel so battered.. where can i go to find peace , where can i go to find rest.. the place i thought i could go to.. now seems so far away.. seems like it dosent matter.. but have no other choice.. where else can i turn



on the outside, how would anyone know, how would anyone be aware of it.. it dosent matter.. everyone has problems.. i just dont know how to deal with mine