i can never forget, yet will i ever remember
sometimes i guess certain things happen, and i will never know why.
i'll never understand myself..no matter how hard i try to grasp the things that made me turn out this way, i cant remember them.. maybe because it wasnt my past.. i'll never understand anything... how? i've been taught everything happens for a reason... im trying to find that reason, and yet i keep losing it... theres that emptiness.. that.. i dono how to explain.. its.. some void in my collection of memories.. one great big Blank.. issit because of that i became this way? dont know! i dont remember! .... somehow i just dont feel like i can connect to anyone else this way... its like.. haiz..

well.. if i keep saying i Dont remember, i DONT understand.. i DONT wanna... how many times am i gonna say