shouldnt have taken things forgranted...
shit man.
things have gotten so complicated, again..

in times of trouble, in times of need.. i know who i can count on. i know who will be there for me..

i know who i can trust.. and.. ..*do i dare to say.. this... ... *
i know who i can love.

ive never felt this way.. im.. haiz..

my heart is literally aching.
*sorry,
this is a blog.
i rant abt my feelings .
because theres no where else i can rant to.*
and..
yes.
it hasnt hurt this bad, since .. since Then.
which was about 8 mths ago..
and..

well. .. i dont understand what is going on, but..
who knows.. maybe its good, maybe its bad.
i dont know.
i dont feel that i have a right to say what my opnion is.. yes, im 14.. and, i still dont know this, dont know that.. i cant do anything much now..

but.. haiz..
i dont know how things will turn out.. i dont know what i should do..
i just..
haiz..

anata o ai shite imasu.

i feel like a part of me has been destroyed.. nevermind. i dont want to blog abt this.

its complicated enough as it is


im sorry.

dont know what the .... is going on