i feel so..
i dont know
no words can describe
empty?
idk..
hope i wasnt being too emo today.

haiz..
feelings of rejection, unwantedness.. haiz..
i need them there, i know that much, but..
haiz..
guess no choice, just have to try to forget that they ever existed..


i always feel compared..
i always feel judged..
why?


i dont know whether i can take this for much longer...
idk how long i can withstand the pressure that keeps on building up inside of me..
haha


i suppose that i just have to rely on my own strength, my own understanding.
i cant expect so much from them anymore...

yea,
i rather be alone, and live to my own expectations rather than
be with ppl and have their expectations to live up to and have them judging and condemming me all the time

everything i do is wrg like that.
shit lah
waliao

dont feel like blogging anymore
nt many ppl actually listen anyway.