i suppose
that if no1 is gonna help me..
i gotta do it myself..
i mean, no1 owes me my life
...
gotta start working for it..
whatever goal i wanna achieve, short term and long term..
aiyoh..

thinking too much again
what does it matter, actually..


i am who i am..
but i can change..
im not fated to be a failure the rest of my life, right?
yeah..
in 2 weeks, im gonna have to work like siao, to prove everybody wrong..

why in 2 weeks? sch starts. hahaha.. ironic. diao... well, who cares. hahas. i have my own life to live. they have theirs. going to have to start studying.. i mean... its so hard lah. i cant believe im this lazy.. i mean, in the past, i put in 50% effort, i can get the same marks as some1 who put in 100% effort. i know that. but now, lately, im too lazy to put in 50% ... aiyoh.. im so lazy lazy lazy.. cannot!!!! ... grrh.. after slacking for abt 2 years?! going to have to put 150% effort... im really backward nw.. slow slow.. aiyoh.. shouldnt have slacked.. now gotta pay for it. shit lah. walao. sec 3.... haiz.. sec 4, stress.. sec 3.. still can lah.. aiyoh.. ok.

cant wait for school to start...
dont know how to study on my own..
when sch starts, just gotta pay attention.. just listen, don sleep, doodle, draw, rip, or do anything else tat causes chers to hate you..

haiz.. a new start, a new beginning...
i Have to prove them wrong.
im not stupid
i dont want them to look down on me le.
what happened in the past, leave it in the past.


too lazy to continue