oh man..
i feel really stupid.. i mean, what the hell was i thinking.. why didnt i go when i had the chance.. i cant go cg or service for 2 weeks now... haiz.. ... the thought of being so far.. it hurts alot.. suddenly.. i feel so broken again.. oh man.. whats taking hold of me...

i should have guarded better.... amen, everything is done for a reason... i've found the reason here... so many things i wanna thank God for... the fact that hope has returned to my life, that im not alone anymore.. that i realised that ppl actualy Do care about me.. i guess im.. haha.. im inconsistent... haiz..

im not gonna backslide.. plz.. i dont wanna backslide... never never never... i know i cant last long on my own.. im really leaning now... everything on my God's shoulders... haiz..

im captured by your holy calling..
set me apart, i know youre drawing
me to yourself....
heal me lord i pray...
take me...
mould me...
use me..
fill me..
i give my life,
to.. the potters hands..

i miss your comfort.. and seems like every trial i go through i cannot win without you by my side.. without your miracles, miracles i do not understand... but i trust all the same... i guess.. circumstances occured.. made me think.. about what i was doing.. with my life.. everything.. haiz.. i pray that things dont get worse :)

Lord... take me in again?

.. hahahas.. theres a song playing on my comp..
"all i need is you lord, all i need is you..
youre my world, youre my god, and i lay down my life for you.. you are my lord, you are my God, and i love, no1 can ever take your place..."

haiz.. i feel broken all over.....
today.. is amazing..