i dont know what to do anymore..
i feel torn..

well. i thought today would be a good day, and yes, it was. until now.
i really dont know what to do.. i thought it was the best thing for both sides.. *haha. sounds like a war.* oh well. i dont understand anything.
.. i just cant get it into my head..
haiz
im always getting pushed into doing this, into doing that.. without any idea of what is going on. guess its time to take control of my life. well. i have no idea.
all i can ever say is i dont know huh. i never know.
i never know what i will never know.. why cant life just be simple.. then it would be boring. guess i should not care about everything. isnt the best way to not get hurt in the end. i feel shredded now. any idea how sucky that feels? .. this isnt the worst time i cried.. i mean.. haiz.. i dont know..

there.. a i dont know again..
im getting irritated with myself :)
well, then again, i dont much like myself.
arh.

life is filled with hurts.. i have no idea what im causing.. but yeah.