okay.
i dont wanna end the day pissed.
so..yeah.
otherwise what the hell am i doing up at 11.
ok its early... but..
i'll fall asleep.
yea, can list all my bad points.

short attention span
violent
noisy
quiet
irritating
who knows what else.
..

most is short attn span.. 5 mins forget everything. haiyo. memory like hell.. oh ya. the worst.. when i fall asleep in lesson.. its like.. my soul leaves lyk dat.. see eye like no expression.. hahaha.. funni lar. den i was like.. wah.. cannot remember even falling asleep or getting up. =.= diaonz.

but.. haiya.. i dont know lah.. im so confused.. its.. haiz....
i dont wanna post anything i shouldnt, and yet.. haiz..
feel so worthless....
what the hell is the point of a blog? to tell ppl hw you feel, right..
or issit something dat kaypos nth else to do go tell other kaypos abt deir day.
idk.
or is a blog just a b. l. o. g. simple four letters.
wth.
or issit an internet diary? O.O
so ironic.
an
internet
diary.
arent diaries supposed to be private? and.. like.. handwritten or something =.=..
arh wtf
.....
feel lyk dying.
so confused lah. ..haiz.
wah...
i cant even be myself on this damn blog.....
haiz...............


who am i.
i still donno.
some dumbass
dat gets angry easily
and half the time doesnt show it
so breakdowns, this, that...
yet, who can i trust, to be here for me.
im just getting worse and worse? is that it?
i dont know!
i honestly dont know..
because what i thought was, wasnt, and what i knew wasnt, maybe is.
does dat make sense?
....
haiz..
i just.. im so confused..
dats lyk the only thing i can say.. im CONFUSED.
lalala..
arh the hell wit it.
tomorrow.. i havent done my hw yet lah...
dont understand the effing e maths, a maths whatever shit...haiya
tomorrow recess..
gonna
study. for once.
damn chem test
arh, heck
it'll take me 10 mins to finish studying
there!
STAMP, CHOP.
A GUARENTEED F.
.....
just like everything else, huh.
an F.
a big red F.
when will the day be when i get an A.
then again, As are also in red.
hahahaha.
so dumb.
=.=
arh, who cares.
guess never?
then again, i dont study mah, what do i expect to have.
so i dont lyk studying, what else can i lyk to do?
last year, i asked ppl dat when i was bored, dey said "do something productive"
i was online for like 4 h and 15 mins.
is that productive?

sure i was watching something,
but
issit productive?
no, right?
....
yeah.
haiz
im just wasting my life away again.
and i still can complain!?!?
seriously, i have no idea what the hell im talking abt.
just ranting
maybe should seriously start posting SOMETHING, dat ppl wld actually READ.


what should i do.. i;ve lost the direction i desperately need... and haiz.. what can i do, seriously..i put my heart, my mind to something, and yet i can slack off at it. haiz. its so dam stupid. its not something i WANT to do. haiz, why cant i ever do things i actually wanna do. den wont i put my heart to it? come on, what idiot finds it fun to do things dat he or she hates. no1 rite..? ...

yeah. but we dont have a choice, do we. no1 has a choice, do they? sure they have a choice, but hello, hw damn limited issit.. you cant get anywhere you Want to get.. its always depending on connections.. on.. appearance.. on.. attitude.. on attractiveness.. skill? i dont know. HAIYA IM TOKING NONSENSE LAHHHHH....


DUMBASS SHIT IM TALKING NONSENSE LARRRRRR
WALAOOOO
FINE
I"LL SIGN OFF
feel like reading the bible
maybe dat will change me from the inside out.