jiuming..
i cant hide anymore..
what more do i have to hide anymore...
i know i have many past hurts, i cant run away from that.. but i dont want to .. haiz..

i dont want to be alone, and cry all myself again... and yet,
who can i depend on to comfort me?

i dont know what is going on..

i cant even remember why i became like this.
i cant even remember where it all started..
its like layers and layers of covering up,
covered everything up so good, that i forgot what i was hiding in the 1st place.

that time, the 1st cg chalet i ever was at, wow.. it was so .. well.. i felt really good... when siewpeng was there for me.. i was hiding in tt corner, crying like theres no tomorrow.. and no idea why.. wassit ppl lying to me..?

arh.
who cares.
shit, im tearing again.


im so weak, dammit..
cant even do this.
sch is starting.. i cant be like this again...

they can only advise me.. what i want is some1 to tell me what to do, and make it so tat i agree.. but still, i cant keep following ppl all my life?! ...

who am i......
some idiot..
who cant keep her emotions under control...
tears flowing.
shit man.
i dont know what to do anymore..