alwin,i know how you feel.

hahas. come to think of it..
my heart used to hurt alot..
i used to be troubled alot, tortured.. in my thinking i suppose..
i mean.. hahahas. i dont think he has any clue that i felt the same way hes feeling nw..
well. its ok. im over it. had to. it killed me. then again, maybe he knows. well. dosent matter, hahas.. its ok. im ok. he can know.

HAAA!! NO HE CANT!!!!
=.=
argh.
....

well. all i wanted was to help ..and.. argh. why am i posting this in a blog. its supposed to be a diary entry. argh. heck. =.= .... well.. it really killed me. i mean.. i felt.. haiz. cannot say. all the f words come out. anyway, because of dat, i guess i misunderstand easily.. have to put safety lock ard my heart next time. cannot fall le. cannot make the same mistakes. =.= argh. frustrating. dosent matter.. oh well. it made me hate as well. haiz. sad.

used to always blog to tell myself things would ok, get up again when i fall. i have to. im emotional. yes. im egoistic too, apparently, that im blogging this. haha. i dont much care. im learning. making mistakes.. trying. if it dosent work, i know i tried. its ok. :) i'll tell myself that. i hope my friends dont judge me based on my mistakes alone.. hahas. i have to give up on it.. :) i did!

its the past anw. im not gonna remember, because the scars will never fade, and thats a fact. they stop hurting, but never fade. haiz
sad..
oh well.

i thank God i have friends who care for me and <3 me. im not like other ppl, i know. im weird. i know. its ok. i tell myself its ok. hahas. issit taking pride in the wrg things? i dont much see how, hahas. eli, sayang sayang. :)

time to study. a maths and english exam tomorrow. i need to do well, because in o lvl, i dont have cca points to pull up my grade. i NEED good marks. time to study!