haiz... i feel SO LOST! ... i like. .re-edited this post 3 times liao.. type, delete, type delete , type delete.. wth lar.. -.- ... i feel so shitty la.. canot even get into the combi... stupid.. i HATE this... have to pick from the unwanted combi left over.. man... why was i so stupid.. WHY was i so dumb... why why why... so many unanswered questions...

can you believe this, in my report card, my cher put this
commitment : fair
compassion : good
competence : very good
conscience : good
courage : good

i cant believe my competence "very good" ... hahahs
anyway,

i feel that ive changed alot... idk whether issit for the better or worse.... haiz..im v. scared i become a really really IRRITATING, IRRITABLE person... i want to be loving! as in, i want to be able to love others... *wow.. just realised.. i really do spend alot of time inward...* its like a diary sia, my blog -.- an ONLINE diary... ironic... arent diaries supposed to be private?... dots.. k nevermind.. im gonna end here or it will become a long long grandmother story.. all is rantings som more.. so boring..hahas.. k ....