*this will be a long post*

hahas...

hahas... heya! today was the.. last... day of school... which oso means... its the last time i'll get to see 2b as a class...haiz... felt so sad today... felt like crying.. i didnt though.. hee... T__T''' haiz... gonna miss all the ppl who really impacted my life.... hilda... val chia.. isma.. tanya. shifu.. mummi... si xuan... amira... haiz... dey are like.. wa... i cant bear to part with them.. imagine next year, i will be in a different class as the rest of them... haiz... i hate this... they expect us to bond, then when we do? we get seperated.... and, we didnt even bond tat close.. imagine if we did, all the tears will flow.. den the whole sch will be flooded... with tears and mucus... haiz.. and tissue paper will clog everywhere...

i tell you this, dont EVER slack off ... after i did, for like.. 6 months, i really regret it... haiz.. .even though, well.. yea.. . had some problems lar.. dey asked me to go to a psychaitrist, so its like.. i really needed counselling .. i didnt go lar.. because i din wan hahas... but.. thanks to the ppl i mentioned earlier, and w387, and some others, i got back on my feet... stood tall, and carried on the race... i am 2nd last though, among the whole sec2express... that really pushes up my ego WOW... ... but... i was slowed down... so it was expected that i will finish near the last... but still.. it made me so sad... haiz... i have no chance, no chance to get into the combi that i wan now, do you know that? i hav to pick from the remainders.. remainders that ppl don wan ... its like... waliao... i feel so.. waliao lar... T__T'' my life is in such a mess... i pray it can get sorted out quickly....am i asking for too much? ... haiz.. .i DONT KNOW WHERE I WANT TO GO, WHAT I WANT TO DO! thats my problem, i guess.. haiz..need to search for a solution... i hope its not too late... or else... will die lar... well.. if i can even get into express.. which even that will be a miracle..... im starting to forget that miracle... feeling so dry... haiz... God... plz.. come back... i need you.... more than anything, even if my life is in a mess, i swear, i will never, NEVER forget you again. never, NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER dont love you anymore...i pray you can help me keep promise.. to LOVE you with all my heart, all my soul... God... your ways are higher than mine... if its your will, let Yours be done....
"do not bring me to the test, BUT DELIEVER ME FROM EVIL!"

Amen....


well.. today, it was kinda fun lar... sch.. i tot i was late at 1st, in the end i got there right on time... hahas... so i din miss assembly! the LAST assembly... hahas... yea... oh well, we had programmes the whole day, watching performances... the last day of sch was not really that spontanious.. it was kinda boring... after sch, me, val, isma, amira, went to val's house... it was torture for me, because i was fasting, and dey ordered pizza.... wa.. tell you ar, just watching the cheese melt... wa... i wanted to die.. kept telling myself.. its ok, its ok.. i have ban mian when i get home.... T.T''' in the end i ate laksa.. and the laksa sucked like hell... the only good thing is i got coffee today hahas... went to buy.. nescafe.. nice nice X] hee... oh well... i love them... i hope they know that, but i love them... no matter how much dey will tell me to shut up, no matter how many times dey will ignore me, i still will love them. with all my heart. hahaa( only God i will love with all my soul haha....) k lar...

time to.. remember all my blessings so i can share dem for cg tmr hahas... gotta jot dem down... T.T" forgot liao hahhahaha