haiz..
whats becoming of this..
i mean.. im sorry.. im really unable to forget that.. and i realise that.. idk lah.. just dont have that secure feeling.. i feel that im swimming in the middle of the ocean, in the midst of a storm... nth to hold onto, i don feel safe...

i mean... idk lah. i wish one day i'll be able to be my self, the real me.. and.. just.. well.. be truthful to my leaders.. idk.. i mean now, i keep having this feeling like im covering sth up.. idk what it is.. but..
its.. like.. haiz....

nevermind.


idk.. .. i cannot forget dat..