everytime i hear, safe in a crazy world by corrine may,
somehow.. i'd cry..
well, yeah , i dont hear it often lah. but everytime i hear fully i'd cry..
like now..
haiz..

i wish i could hold onto something tangible and trust in it forever... for protection, for safety.. yes, i know God is there for me to hold on, but i can never feel God.. and im afraid of being bashed up by the inevitable things that i'll eventualy face.. im afraid..

i donno..
sometimes i just wanna be alone..
like today..
i loved today.
i can just spend time alone, doing things i like to do..
slacking, lazing, sorting out my itunes, (which im not done)
hearing songs...
and now, tearing..
....
im scared..
everytime i hear it,
i'd be reminded.. that the world isnt beautiful.. its scary, its horrible..anything can hurt you, and its like.. you'd be forever vulnerable.. maybe thats why i like my house. protected.. =.=

haiz..
i dont know..
best not to think abt it..

haiz..
how can i not think..
why issit im scared of everything and everyone..
and why issit that im so insecure..
why do i cry so easily..
why do i feel so..
haiz..
im scared...
=.=