how much more of this can i take?
its killing me
i wanna die
haiz...
i always feel compared... like im just a comparison used for .......idk .....her perfection?
i dont know anymore... y issit alwiz my fault. everything that goes wrong is ALWAYS MY FAULT. no no, never your the one in the wrong... ALWAYS me.
im the one you will forever blame, forever persecute....
ALWAYS EVERYTHING THAT GOES WRONG? AND ITS MY FAULT. you changed" you lied"

why? did things have to be like this
y
y y y
i wasnt stupid?
im not stupid?
what am i now?
what do i have to show for everything?
still ranting about this, i COULD HAVE GONG TO SPECIAL STREAM, NOW IM GONNA GO NORMAL?!
what the hell
help
..... god..
i need you...


i cant say out anything... i canot do anything...
why would you care...


DONT LIE TO ME ANYMORE YOU FUCKING BITCH