helloz
today cg was at my house , and dey all just left.
*sighs *
the message was good, jonathan shared a testimony that had the verse, WITH GOD, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.
yea..
nice
hhaha..
anyway,
i just feel like crying nw
i always feel forgotten, forsaken...
feel all alone.
idk y
idk how
because i tot im supposed to feel happy...
but y issit all the times im supposed to be happy,
im not
and i dont have the courage to do all the things i wanna do
i dont have that faith.
im not that strong.
outside maybe i will seem strong, but who sees behind that?
stone walls block everything happening inside the city. it protects the city, but at the same isolates them from the rest of the world...
beeleng said this abt me, my heart is like a rock. underneath the rock is spikes. underneath the spikes is a soft heart, that maybe with a single touch will crack and fall into a million pieces.

im scared.
of myself, of the people around me, of this world
im just really scared.

what m i living for?
no idea.
y m i crying?
no idea.
y cant i just be HAPPY
no idea.


the thing is...

i've got a problem


that i cant solve.