heya...
im back from church...yea..
so pai seh la can... ppl say me look... (well... ... this is awkward).... ok pretty..
today....becasuse i wore a skirt... hahas... haiz... i wish i wouldnt get hugged
so much... i don really like it... that too has a reason, but i don wanna type it
out.. hahaha.... oh well... today... alvina didnt come... she got grounded...
haiz... well... missing her .... haiz... i feel so down now... i mean, aiya... i cant
say what it is la.. but... haiz... just know im feeling down la can liao ... -.-
dots..... this thing has been burdening me alot lately... i've asked valerie
and kangie and twin come church multiple times, and dey all are sick of me
asking... and the damage ive done is like.. permanent, and i cant get undo
it.... haiz... i feel so useless... i cant even bring any1 to church.... im supposed
to be blessed to be a blessing to others, but what blessing am i? im a
problem.... and another verse says, Hypocrite! first get rid of the log in your
eye, before you help your neighbour get rid of the speck in theirs" ... but
how do i get rid of that log? its a problem, which never leaves me.. haiz....
what do i do now? where can i go from here? im so scared to trust any1
now manz.... im afraid... true, on the outside i look strong... i act strong...
but look deep down, im weak... but through God, let the weak say I AM
STRONG. so one day, i pray that my heart will be strong, that i can
overcome all the fears and insecurities in my heart, and i can be a blessing,
and there will be a GREAT REVIVAL! i confirm the future now. faith as a
mustard seed can move mountains. do you know just how small is a
mustard seed? half a green bean. do you know how large is a mountain? it
has to surpass what... 600m? so if a small mustard seed can move such a
big mountain, same as my faith! my faith may be small, but i believe that
it will one day MOVE THE MOUNTAIN OF PROBLEMS IN MY LIFE!
then, the log in my eye will be removed, and i will be able to help so many
others remove the speck in theirs.....

God, Oh God...
I Need You...
now and forever. im yours.