hello.
im eliz.
if youre reading this and thinking that what the hell is this shit, den please press the red box wit the [x] on the top right hand corner of the screen.
because this is gonna be a long post...
yea.

anyway...im just ranting now... because i alwiz feel that everytime i wanna ask for help, or ask some1 to just listen to me ranting, i alwiz feel that the door is alwiz closed, that i will just waste pple's time... so im gonna post it on my blog.

yea...


im feeling uber depressed nw, so maybe that will explain why my 2dae post is like this...

was thinking about what the heck m i gonna do, during parent-teacher meeting i remember that cher told my ma that i maybe have to go normal acad... yea... then im gonna have to start all over, cuz all of my frens are in express... realli feel very hopeless... overheard some1 in sch saying like what is my problem, y issit i alwiz cry like that... ... haiz... i wish life has a guide book... and, well i dont wanna try so hard, and in the end fail...feel like a real fucking failure... haiz... once stupid alwayz stupid? help... i dont know what to do...dont see any point in y do pple want to continue living for... why bother doing everything when in the end you just die and go to hell... why did i have to be born...why couldnt i have been some1 else... im just staring into space, wondering how will my life turn out, wondering will i die tomorrow, hoping and praying and kowtowing that i will please die tomorrow............what the fuck is this damn shit.....

how to put all that im feeling now into words?